Face First...

I'm coming across some difficulty.
& I'm not gonna lie, its with you.
Always over my shoulder
Never near my lips.

Always making excuses to move further away
But staying close, constricting me...

I'm stuck.
I don't know what to do with myself.

Everything is confusing and nothing is fair.

It isn't fair that I don't get everything I deserve.
It isn't fair for me to expect you to give me the things I want.


Who should change?
Should I compromise myself?
Should You?

Could I ever ask you to?
No.


So here I am.
Trapped between two fucked up slivers of who I am.


Should I go on?
With you.
Into forever....



when I know....







I thought to myself the other night...I could never leave you alone, it's a life and death situation.
Either way, really.
You live dead without me
I live dead without you.
I die more every day because of this.
You die watching me die in silence.



nothings ever fair.
nothings ever perfect.

I lied when I said I'd be okay.
I didn't think it could possibly be real.

But we're going further
instead of closer.









(one)(six)(eight)
til death do us part.